Prince Ali

A List of Grievances

*Please don't be disgusting and shower more the 3 times a week
*Brush your teeth more than once a day. The dentist recommends once every 12 hours MINIMUM. And preferably with non-moth-ball-tasting toothpaste too.
*Start working out. I see some belly fat and I'm not one to talk, but high metabolism doesn't last forever
*Poop and cum are funny things but quickly get annoying. Sometimes having serious side might make me want you more
*Shave your mustache
*Fix your god damned teeth

***And for the love of god, if I tell you I'm not seeing anyone else, don't sit here and have me believe you are too.

These are reminders that she's human. As precious and amazing a creature she is, she's human.


So I really learned something. Relationships are just as scary for women as they are for men. It's weird that I see the dumbest of broads plunging head-first into guys that I would consider not so safe. I guess that's their way of bargaining for companionship and I can definitely say I've done that and had that done to me. So really its a human thing, not completely confined to one gender or the other.

Life has a funny way of teaching you lessons. I think having a healthy relationship comes down to a bunch of things. But keeping your sanity is just as important.

Your passion and purpose must come first, this is where alone time starts to become crucial (Steph)
A relationship takes passion and time (Steph, Natalie, Kelsey)
If you think someone is relationship potential for the love of god they can't know about your other partners. I can honestly say I now know what Natalie felt like when I told her I was still seeing Steph.
A woman should really be emotionally invested before talks of relationship even come up. Nick called this staying one page behind the girl at all times, even if your heart is ripping through your chest.

This has been a really interesting 6 months for me. I can certainly say I've broken my back trying to meet women more than I ever have, and yeah I did hook up with a few that I honestly believed were out of my league.

But my quest shouldn't end.

This was my downfall, thinking Kelsey was beyond fault, which to be completely honest she's got a ton of them. She's young, and she's really enjoying a man that shes totally comfortable with and won't risk getting hurt with. I should have seen this coming and it's not my place to get in the middle of that.

As soon as I learned (or thought) that she wasn't seeing anyone else, I thought maybe she would appreciate my commitment and loyalty. Too soon. Not enough investment. Instead what happened is I spent the last month and a half throwing myself at her and giving her my heart on an open platter, thinking this is what people do when they are in love. I spent all this time really building her up in my mind just to be let down. And I'm starting to find that she wasn't feeling the same.

And I really did fear that if she ever did see me with someone else or learned that I was fucking around, I would lose her. To be honest, I don't think she would have cared, mostly because we hadn't been physical yet. Or maybe that's not it at all. But that was a month and a half I did LOSE MY MIND to and it was definitely time I could have spent searching.

So where do I stand now? I can't fault her for having a great sexual relationship with someone. Her relationship status is single on facebook for a reason though. She is missing something from him, but I don't know if she necessarily deserves that from me. My love really is a gift, I shouldn't be handing it out on a platter. I can't shove commitment down her throat. It's exactly how I lost Natalie and how Steph lost me.

I don't know if what she needs is more of me or less of me, it will be interesting to find out.