Prince Ali

I have no idea why I slept with Steph last night. I wasn't even feeling lonely. I wasn't feeling particularly in the mood. But I did anyway. Logically in my mind I was thinking well I haven't cum in like 3 weeks so I should be horny... but that wasn't even it.

I think after just failing with getting laid a number of times it was a breath of fresh air to get someone who would let me use her.

But I don't feel any better. I feel worse. Now I'm more unnecessarily privvy to her sex life. She fucked Even her ex in addition to a guy I already knew about. And apparently got really close to some Remy character. Now I just feel disgusted that I had sex with her. I feel like she just got everything she wanted sexually. She got her cake and got to eat it. I put my heart and soul to meeting new people and got nothing.

There is really no reason I should have slept with her. I feel like all my progress went backwards because now I'm obsessing over her again. I need to move forward. I need to remember why I'm disgusted in her. I need to just feel that absolute repulsion that helped me with my game.

She is out of my life now. Period. It's better this way.


In other words Angelica is seeing somebody else now, but I'm still sensing a gap that I can close. We'll see how this works out.