Prince Ali

I'm reading a lot of Dieda recently and I do have to say his stuff on male/female energy and the dichotemy created between the two is excellent.

There have been two girls who really have made me feel like a man. Colleen is one of them. It is so great to watch her react to my nonreactivity, but she knows I still like her. Larry does a great job cutting between dance and instruction, and I love how sometimes i can tune him out and flirt with her, and other times I can really focus on what he's saying and just know that she is watching me, waiting for my judgement: knowing full well that she can trust it and waiting for me to lead her.

April is the same way. I feel like April is a girl I've met who truly knows how to play the role of a woman. She represents female energy so well: she flows, she radiates, she is always in constant motion. I can see why she would be attracted to me when I play the role of the rock, constantly stagnant, but more powerful.

I've been playing around with reversing gender roles, as far as interactions go, and it is definitely more fulfilling to me when I am truly a man about things, and I feel like the man. My dad was one of those few people who could be stubborn about his will and Devin's dad was similar in the same respect. My path towards balancing hardy stoicism and lots of energy is making less sense, but I can recognize it when I'm doing well.